When I was younger, I noticed people would take sabbaticals from work to well…work. This contradicted my understanding of what a sabbatical should be. In my mind, if you were taking off of work, the only thing you should be doing during that time is lying around eating Little Debbies and watching Maury Povich.
Let’s just say, I am now better able to comprehend the true purpose of taking a sabbatical. This time should be spent pouring into things you find valuable and may otherwise not be able to devote exclusive attention to. For some, that may be spending time with family. But for others, like me, it was throwing myself into tasks for my “side hustle” that will result in me generating revenue.
So that’s it, folks! I needed to focus on building the infrastructure to create revenue streams for The Broccoli of Dating. As many of you know, I am consistently putting a lot of work and effort into my blog, the content I create, the branding, and also my Life Coaching services (which you may not have known). It was time I took a step back to assess the time-value of my efforts.
Blogging is something I really enjoy. Like FOR REAL! I didn’t realize how much I love writing and engaging with people through writing until I launched this blog. The Broccoli of Dating has truly been a source of pure joy for me these last couple of months. So, I don’t plan to stop blogging. Rather, it’s time to layer in some ways to make it all make sense. Ya feel me? (in my Lil Scrappy voice)
Ok, now for this crazy month I’ve had. Do you follow my InstaStories? If so, you already know that this month has been challenging for me. Also, you’ve probably concluded that I’m a total weirdo (Oops, cat’s out of the bag!).
This month was literally CRAZY straight out of the gate. It was almost as if a force in the universe was like, “Oh she’s trynna be great? LOL, that’s cute! She gonna learn today!” I’m just going to run down a quick list of things I was up against each week starting May 1st.
Week 1: Depression
This may sound crazy, but I actually quickly entered into a cycle of depression because I felt purposeless without blogging. Blogging had become something that I not only loved but also something that was a predictable part of my routine. Removing it felt like my purpose had been snatched away. The first week of May, I had to learn to adjust to a new normal.
Week 2: Panic Attacks
I started experiencing painful chest pains. I’m used to being in some sort of pain so, initially I dismissed them. But, then I noticed four days later they were still present and were actually getting worse. Dead serious, I thought I was having a heart attack. I was so scared I called my mom to have a “last wishes” type of conversation. I went to the emergency room and thankfully everything checked out with my heart. A week later, as clear as day, I realized I’d been experiencing panic attacks for the last two weeks. I’ve never had anxiety before so, this was the last thing I would’ve guessed. In truth, I’m still having them but they’ve eased up tremendously. I’m actually going to devote a post to this because anxiety is tied to pushing ourselves beyond our comfort zones. Through this, I came to understand and have compassion for how paralyzing anxiety can be but also how important it is, to not let it have the final say.
Week 3: Failure
I felt like I was failing at everything I did. I contemplated giving up daily. This was an extremely emotional week for me. And then to top it all off, my friend passed at the end of the week. The events of this week threatened everything I thought I knew.
Week 4: Out of Control
The concept of control in my own life seemed to be nonexistent. I had my entire week planned and hardly anything went according to the plan. This drove my anxiety up because I had a running list of things I needed to accomplish by this week, and none of them were getting done, which meant I wouldn’t be on target to close out this month the way I planned. Again, I contemplated giving up.
Week 5: Frustration With “The Process”
This week, I was completely over not knowing how to do like 80% of the things I need to do in order to launch my first digital product. The thing about having a business nowadays is there are sooo many tentacles to EVERYTHING. Navigating this stuff can be frustrating and overwhelming. I keep telling myself, “I just need to figure it out. These things will only be new to me once.”
I spared you guys the emotional rollercoaster of it all but as you can see, there was struggle at every turn, and it was only because I made my mind up to push my limits. I pushed, and they (the limits) pushed back. Guess what though? It’s June 1st. I MADE IT!!!